30 Day Challenge- Day 2

Day 2- 1-8-2011
4:44-5:25
Grooves- Iron and Wine: Our Endless Numbered Days

Today was substantially better than yesterday.  Not in what I was able to accomplish, but more so my feelings entering into my hoop space.  I chose something mellow- which usually does the trick to get my creative juices flowing.
The first few songs were basic, trying to make my stream into a full speed river of flow.  Eehh....sometimes it works...but today it was an effort, so instead I tried to melt into the sound of his voice and the strumming guitar. 

I have been watching Marsha hoop alot- I always enjoy the sense of complete utter joy and ease with which she hoops. She has a definite style which makes me happy.  Plus she's been doing this crazy pop thing which looks so smooth and I'm certain we haven't covered it in class.  Earlier today I pinpointed exactly what she was doing...so for one song I mimicked those moves and finally welcomed her little ditty into my repertoire.

There was a time- many years ago when this album was on constant rotation in my CD player.  I was living in rainy northern Cali and my dearest babies (my first ever cat children) were dying with feline leukemia.  It was a deeply emotional and difficult time for me.  This album put me to sleep every night, comforting my soul while enabling me to release all my sorrow.  And so tonight when Fever Dream began to play it opened up a door into my mended heart which had for so long been shut tight.  Quickly my eyes moistened and I let go- welcoming the flood of emotion that enveloped me.  When they say that hooping can be compared to the comfort of the womb I completely agree.  My tears flowed freely down my cheeks, wetting my hoop as it rocked and calmed my spirit.
I am a mother.

Subtle beats drew me back to my polypro hoop and I was able to transfer my emotion into positive energy.  Making the most of my ghost hand I worked the hoop around my body, trying to discover unused space and planes. 

My 40 minutes were invaluable to me today.  They were what I was looking for.  Mostly what I needed, without knowing it.  I gained insight to new topics to cover for class and was able to tap into the deep deep well inside of me that has been covered tight.  My light is on and I feel fine.